Wed, Jan 19th - 9:11PM
this blog is my 2011 resolution diary
if you don't want to read about how i am faring with my resolutions and related issues, don't read this, because that's what this is. i'm not here to entertain you. on the other hand if you have made similar resolutions to mine and would like company keeping them, or know me and care what happens to me, or are amused by such things, i am making this public so you can follow along. no one is twisting your arm, though. if you want my thoughts on politics, advertisements, television, feminism, religion or anything of import to someone other than my own struggling self, i have an actual blog for that, and it's listed in my blog roll here. i only mention this because someone said this blog makes no sense. well, it makes perfect sense to those for whom it is intended. if that's not you, you need read no further.
for the rest of you, and myself:
monday i saw my primary care physician, as i've said, and she prescribed some meds, some for daily use and some for use as needed. on tuesday i went to the eye doctor and got a prescription for new specs but also found out my choice of frames is so severely limited that it may well be a problem getting this prescription filled. i doubt i will even have a chance to try until next week, when i go out for more docs' appointments. meanwhile, i picked up the meds yesterday. i rejected one: it has a component to which i am allergic. that would've been a diuretic. usually those are prescribed for high blood pressure but i have low normal blood pressure, really good blood pressure. in my case it has been prescribed to see if it will help reduce the swelling in my ankles. however, it won't be doing that as i rejected the medicine.
the other meds are: cymbalta, which will do double duty for fibromyalgia and depression. i took it once before but did not give it enough of a chance to see if it would work. (i gave it ALMOST enough of a chance... but i had to stop taking ALL my meds, as i started becoming violently ill at the very site of a pill. that's because i was also taking 11 other pills per day, some of them for arthritis, some for fibromyalgia (and those were making me very ill), some for asthma, some for acid reflux, some for overactive bladder, and then i had more if i got a migraine or sinus headache. it was TOO MUCH. i had to stop... and if i wasn't willing to stop then my body was going to make me stop. it did.
now i am trying again, and i really want to be able to do this without my stomach's rebelling. i'm not taking the mirapex anymore; that was the fibro med that in itself could make me so sick, never mind the rest. i started at a quarter of a mg, which didn't nauseate me, and i could get up to 3/4 without being sick, too, but the goal was 4 i think. i don't remember well now. i do know that i would spend a week being nauseous and then have to up the dosage another quarter, and i got pretty far with it, but i just never had a time when i wasn't sick. once i got to my goal dosage, then it was going to take half a year for it to work, IF it worked. i just couldn't take it anymore. i think even if i hadn't begun puking all the time, i would've had to quit the mirapex. so... now it's cymbalta alone for that. singulair worked GREAT for my asthma -- i never even needed my inhaler the whole time i was on it -- and i hope it does again. prilosec worked MOST of the time for the acid reflux, and it had better do so again, as i am in agony. i have some sudafed on hand in case of sinus headaches, which i rarely get, and i think she forgot to give me ibuprofen for minor relief of major arthritis. it doesn't work well but it cuts the pain down to a humanly tolerable level. i guess i have to call her office AGAIN tomorrow; i called it today to explain why i rejected the diuretic.
and of course i have my alli, prescribed but rejected by insurance, purchased on ebay (perfectly legal; it is available over the counter), to block absorption of 30 percent of my fat intake. i take one to three a day -- usually one, since that is how many meals i have. yes, i know i should have three. tough. i'm working on it. sometimes i have two. i'm trying!
and where did i put the eye drops the eye doctor gave me? ah, in my coat pocket. there we go. that's all of them.
when the singulair kicks in i will go back to the healthrider... probably not tomorrow, unless the cymbalta doesn't make me ill. i think it's about a third of the amount i will be taking (they ease you onto it) so maybe it won't, and if it doesn't, then taking the second third won't either. that would be nice. i don't think the doctor knows yet what my dosage will be, but i think it will come to thrice the starting dose, based on past experience with cymbalta and also with my curious relationship with meds: i'm usually either allergic to them or terribly resistant. singulair is an oddity: the normal dosage works great with no side effects! it should be easer to sing once the asthma is under control, too. oh btw i did have my laugh today, when sammy crawled into a paper bag and richard picked the bag up by its handles and carted sam all over the house. sam likes that!
so i have to remember to take three pills every night, plus the alli after each meal. is this beyond my capabilities or shall i rise to the occasion? we shall see!